Sometimes recently everything gets a little dark, I manage to get myself a little trapped and stuck in this pit. Whenever I catch myself in this state I always try and claw my way out not wanting to be surrounded by darkness or infringe my mood on to others, sometimes this is much easier said then done. Recently everything has been a little crappy but that's not actually completely true because as I've spoken about many a times, I have an awesome man by my side. He is super supportive but sometimes that's almost worse because then I just get stuck feeling like I don't deserve him, which I definitely do not. Right now I'm stuck, I'm feeling awfully sorry for myself, I'm down and I'm fed up with it all. I'm struggling to claw my way out, I literally want to cry and go to bed with a film. There is no real reason that I should feel this way, I know it's ridiculous. I'm exhausted, I'm in pain and I'm very tired of fighting.
